||[Feb. 6th, 2010|02:28 am]
Hi, I'm normal in that wired kind of way.
Look, I get that I'm not entirely sober right now and that this may come back to bite me in the ass but right now.. while I'm feeling it and while my usual filters are off and prohibitions are down, I have to say......|
FUCK (gay) MEN.
As a gay guy, I get that we're "supposed" (I mean that not as obligated, but as "people think of us as") to be promiscuous and selfish. I won't lie... I've done that. It took one time of selfish promiscuity for me to realize how fucked up it is to use other people that way. And now I know another side of it. I totally thought that I had met someone who was above the usual shit, but turns out he isn't any less willing to use a weak drunk then most of the world. Fuck him, and I'm done. Until one freakin' gay guy shows me he is a person with morals and dignity.... I'm done. I need to focus on school anyway, and in the least gay city in this state.. what an excellent place for it. As far as I'm concerned, everyone else in this town is straight, female or a user. And I don't have time for any of them.
Can you tell I'm bitter?
Good. I am.
I'm gonna go make grilled cheese sandwiches, because I need for one thing tonight to be what I want it to be.
Shit I'm weak.